development in toddlers.
i am a work in progress, and i am
in it with all my heart.
“There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one syllable:
I love. I have loved. I will love.”
― The Time Traveler's Wife
some! now that i’m really feeling results (since consistently working out 6x/week beginning in march) and feeling fit, stronger, and leaner, i’d really like to see super defined abs like i used to have at the peak of my track/cross country career when i was 17. i’m also doing the color me rad 5k on june 10th, which has been motivating me to hit the pavement a lot. after that, this summer i’d like to start training for a 1/2 marathon because i really want to run the Nike women’s half next april. (with meagan! eh? eh?)
besides that, just being the healthiest version of myself and feeding/treating my body the way it deserves makes me feel really, really good about myself. so that’s a personal goal i have every day.
tonight i did not want to run. it’s been raining on and off all day and my weather app is saying a thunderstorm should be starting in the next hour and i got home from work and just sat here convincing myself not to run. i’ve pounded my body with max insanity workouts for the last four days in a row and today was supposed to be my day off, but i was laying here and thinking “i could run 4k. my body could do 4 easy kilometers. ugh but it’s gonna rain. and i just showered this morning. and if i’m only going to run 4k (my usual loop is closer to 8.5k) i might as well just not run at all.”
but i didn’t let myself talk my way out of it. i got dressed, and seeing the ominous dark clouds i did something i haven’t done in so long that i honestly can’t remember the last time it happened. i left my phone at home.
and i just ran. i completely checked out of the world for an hour. i was completely unaccessible and unavailable to everyone except myself and it was incredibly invigorating. it made me feel like i was having epiphany after epiphany. why don’t i do this every time i run. why did i ever start running with music. why in the world do i carry a time keeper. my 15 year old self is fist bumping me right now for doing this. and shaking her head for me taking so long. instead of adam levine crooning into my ear and running to the beat, i ran to the beat of my body. i paid attention to my form. when i was going up the mountain i noticed my arms losing their range of motion and corrected it and felt better, stronger. instead of flipping through instagram while stretching i paid attention to my muscles. i watched a dad teaching his son how to ride a bike and was reminded of a home video of dylan at the same age. instead of changing my music, i felt my core with every step. i felt myself getting completely drenched in sweat in the way that only pre-thunderstorm humidity can make you. i didn’t worry about how long i was gone, what my mile time was (i usually try to ballpark it with songs since i don’t like running on a clock), or if i got an email. checking out of everything technological is something i need to do more often. fabulous things happen even if they’re not instagrammed. your body improves and feels stronger even when you don’t measure it.
guys, it was just so freaking good for me. i never used to run with music, it was something i started doing in university because running in the city i would often get yelled at by creepy guys and if i had headphones in, i could ignore it without them harassing me further (since i would look toward the yelling instinctively and they would take that as a cue to continue). i infuriated every running coach i’ve ever had by refusing to wear a watch. getting back into that feeling of running with my body for my body and taking some real me-time just feels amazing.
and note to future rachael: a 4k run is ALWAYS better than a 0k run. any run is better than no run, ya fool.
(but i felt so fantastic i ended up running 6k.)
nope! none. just yo body, the video (i torrented them all from isohunt), and enough floor space that you can do a pushup. so maybe 7feet by 4-5ft minimum? you move side to side a bit and sometimes jump in a square shape but for the most part you don’t need very much room at all.
- still alive
- still not a superhero
- still can’t drink the water
- still have no idea why
- still can’t wash my dishes so they’re piling up but this is the first time i’ve ever had a legitimate excuse to not do dishes for ~2 days (more like 4 but SHH)
all in all. ya win some ya lose some.
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officially done the first week of month two! the max workouts are definitely when you start noticing huge changes in your fitness and your body. dylan came to montreal this weekend and i hadn’t seen him since april 22nd, (almost a month!) and he couldn’t believe how different my body looks, especially my shoulders, upper arms, and stomach. i am a pushup machine! when i started insanity i could do 10 pushups TOPS in a row. i can now easily get to 30 and have done 20 after that with only 10 seconds rest. on a related note, i only have one bra that actually fits anymore, which is wildly inconvenient given that my size hasn’t changed since grade 10 so i’ve got masses of bras i’m no longer wearing. but anywho.
max plyo is absolutely ridiculous. and so much of it involves using your own body weight that more than once i was sure i was going to crash face first onto the floor when my arms gave out. (especially squat pushups, where you essentially just throw yourself at the floor in the hopes you’ll catch yourself. perf.) max interval is definitely my favourite and yesterday i had an epiphany moment when i could really FEEL my core the way shaunty keeps telling you to and i looked down and was like BAM ABS YOU EXIST and it was fabulous. they are emerging!
i haven’t been able to run the last few days since it’s been rainy weather and the rest of the week will be the same, so i’m definitely back on the insanity bandwagon for now!
this has probably been incoherent and all over the place, but i just spent 57 minutes working my butt off so my head isn’t currently on straight.